Fingers
I think this morning I dreamt of playing the piano.
I could actually seemingly feel the texture of the keys, black and white.
But when I flipped open the scores, and positioned my fingers over the keys,
I realised that I couldn't use my thumb.
It was so weak, it hurt when I tried pressing it down.

I'm scared and worried.
What if I can't use my thumb properly anymore?
Even after it fully recovers?



I want to play the piano again.
I want to take photographs.
I want to play hockey.
I want to do all the thousands of things that I've always wanted to do.
I wish I can get my education years and done with so I'll have more free time on hand..
But I guess that wouldn't really be very possible sigh idk man.
I'm feeling quite sick and tired of everything in my life right now.
Especially promos, that I'm dreading like shit.
In Nicole's words, it'll probably be 'terrified'.


Anyway! On a lighter note, it's Nicole BEEP Tan's birthday today!
She wouldn't see this, but nevertheless, HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY BEEP!! I LOVE YOU! (Your fav pink hahah)